This post about exorcising the spectre of the fake geek girl really hit close to home. The post is a discussion about a panel at a recent science fiction convention. With only a scant handful of changes, this phenomenon is one that women with tech careers recognize as well. As a senior technical woman, I often find myself getting challenged about whether I’m really a geek. Do I know the right languages? Have I been a Mac user long enough? Do I use the approved applications? Do I read the right blogs and sites? Do I have an approved opinion about [whatever the controversy du jour is]?
There’s always another test. If I pass the first one, then there’s another one lurking. Eventually, I will fail a test. I don’t know everything about computer science, I don’t know every programming language, I don’t read every blog, my opinion doesn’t match up with your opinion on every single topic. Failing one of those tests means that I have proven that I’m a fake geek.
I honestly can’t fathom the person who quizzes me about my geekiness. You would think that my education (three degrees: MS and BS in computer science, BS in math) would speak for itself. Or maybe my job at VMware, where I’ve reached one of the seniormost levels available to technical contributors1, would be sufficient. Or maybe my time on the committee for OOPSLA, or as an advisory board member of MacIT, would be enough. Maybe speaking at Google DevFest would prove it. But it’s not enough. It’s never enough. For those who want to believe that there is no such thing as a geek woman, nothing is ever sufficient.
I’m glad to see others taking on the imagined problem of the fake geek girl. I think if you call yourself a geek, you’re most likely a geek. You might be a geek in a different way than I am, and each type of geekdom is just as valid as the next. There’s no ranking of geeks2. If you tell me you’re a geek, I’m going to take your word for it, and I’m not going to quiz you to find out where you just aren’t geek enough for me.
If I live to be 200, I shall never understand what a “real” geek is, much less a fake one.
Well, if you want to be a purist, if you aren’t in a pit eating chicken heads, you’re just a nerd.
See, even you’re here to tell me I’m not a real geek. 😉